Plz answer question, 10 points for best answer!?

Hi. I'm a girl and the only way for me to is by squeezing my thighs together. Idk even if I'm having an , cuz it feels good its just not as fantastic as ppl say it will b. I get heavy breathing, then sorta numb, and it lasts a couple seconds. But that's it, and ppl describe it to b the best feeling ever! Anyways, I have tried touching myself, and my is very sensitive and i rub it, i just get tired and give up. Also, a vibrator feels so good but I never . I want to feel how an is by my not by my thighs to compare the difference. Also, will I ever when I have ? Or will i b trying to squeeze the guy? I don't have a reachable shower head or a bath tub, all showers in my house! And I have tried sticking things up there but they dont feel that good. I have used a end of a razor in my hole and that feels good, and I have squirted but never plz help, tell me ur techniques and also if I will b trying to squeeze the guy? Plz answer I know its vivid but I want an answer